mandag 13. juli 2009
torsdag 9. juli 2009
onsdag 8. juli 2009
tirsdag 7. juli 2009
lørdag 4. juli 2009
Worst time in my life...
This last week here in manly have by far been the worst time of my life. Although i am grateful to meet old friends, but to come back to Australia and experience that I have lost my girl, Candice, first hand is just killing!
I guess if I just stayed in Norway this would have passed away easier, because back there i was used to not seeing her. Not that I have seen her that much while I've been here either, but just being back here brings up so many memories. Every little corner of this place gives me some kind of a reminder of her.
Like I said to her earlier on the phone today, I will never give up on her. She is the best part of my life and I have had the best 1.5 years of my life with her. No doubt. It's just my faith I guess to be that guy who screwed it up. I've failed many things in my life, but this is the one thing that I should have been able to do right! I mean, this is thee girl for me I am talking about!
things have been said between us over the last few days. Things that we both didn't mean, but also we both said some hurtful things that I guess we did mean. Only none of us wants to hurt each other. For me this is just really hard because she is over me and past the hurting part even before she broke up with me. And i didn't even know about it. And she has also found a new guy. Apparently they are not yet a all exclusive couple, but it hurts to know that the person you love the most are seeing someone else. And from what I can understand this new flame has really made an impression on her. Meaning, my chances are lost! Like totally LOST!
After a few days of fighting and arguing and saying bad things to each other I guess we made peace today. Still no progress for me in regards to what i want. Her! but still I guess its better to leave things in a more chilled out way. and believe me, that is really hard considering the circumstances. But, i love her and if the only way I can make her happy is for me to leave her alone then I will try my best to do so.
I have to let go of Candice, because she doesn't want me and Manly just makes me crazy because of it. I won't stop loving her though. And hopefully we will meet again, and maybe she will see the real me and appreciate my love for her then. Some time in the future. I love you Candice! You're the one for me!
I guess if I just stayed in Norway this would have passed away easier, because back there i was used to not seeing her. Not that I have seen her that much while I've been here either, but just being back here brings up so many memories. Every little corner of this place gives me some kind of a reminder of her.
Like I said to her earlier on the phone today, I will never give up on her. She is the best part of my life and I have had the best 1.5 years of my life with her. No doubt. It's just my faith I guess to be that guy who screwed it up. I've failed many things in my life, but this is the one thing that I should have been able to do right! I mean, this is thee girl for me I am talking about!
things have been said between us over the last few days. Things that we both didn't mean, but also we both said some hurtful things that I guess we did mean. Only none of us wants to hurt each other. For me this is just really hard because she is over me and past the hurting part even before she broke up with me. And i didn't even know about it. And she has also found a new guy. Apparently they are not yet a all exclusive couple, but it hurts to know that the person you love the most are seeing someone else. And from what I can understand this new flame has really made an impression on her. Meaning, my chances are lost! Like totally LOST!
After a few days of fighting and arguing and saying bad things to each other I guess we made peace today. Still no progress for me in regards to what i want. Her! but still I guess its better to leave things in a more chilled out way. and believe me, that is really hard considering the circumstances. But, i love her and if the only way I can make her happy is for me to leave her alone then I will try my best to do so.
I have to let go of Candice, because she doesn't want me and Manly just makes me crazy because of it. I won't stop loving her though. And hopefully we will meet again, and maybe she will see the real me and appreciate my love for her then. Some time in the future. I love you Candice! You're the one for me!
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